Bread, Porn, Her

I am a product of lots and I take no responsibility. My “I” depends on who I am
Talking to, bread, social media, the purchase of too many books, alcohol,
Junk food, being untidy, being unclean, not dusting, letting dirt mount up,
Letting used wet wipes mount up, forgetting myself, porn involving non-
Vanilla sex, Kanye West, finding sociological frameworks reductive, finely-
Grained mathematics, accessible literature by inaccessible authors, witnessing
Elaborations in art unfold, becoming the creator through therapeutic work, her,
Kissing and timing the ins-and-outs to perfection, researching my potential
Sociopathology, masturbation, anti-real metaphysics, experiences with a
Lack of things, dissociation, synonyms, Word, taking signs from a universe
That surely cannot be here, surely, never consciously definitizing, noticing
And letting it go past, taking the edge off, reading, writing, rigor through to
Negligence, meal deals, one pan wonders with no recipes, that squirrel there,
It only being feeling that cannot be packaged in words, but try explaining that
When you’re here, chuckling at the irony of the difficulty of making your point,
The Sopranos, distractions, relics, wall art,
Mute points, mute buttons, spots
Of rain, getting outside, clenching your teeth to feel it, to open up, to allow it in, to trust, to go through hell with no weaknesses and to come out enjoying the weather, to be able to experience the weather, getting
Too personal, manipulating cre-
Ativity, feedback loops, him on the roof, happenstance
Rhymes, timely journaling,
Really not being sure about any of it but sitting in that, mulling over
Whether these should be on their own lines, feeling,
Feeling, bread
Porn, dirt, bread porn, her.