Suffering & Awake

He does not want the dates or the laughs
Or the conversation or the interest or the women

Or the sex anymore so he wishes he was her: all of this could be bad bad bad then.
He is going to fulfil

All her requests including that easy
But degrading thing which he always meets

Incredibly with bitterness so he wishes he was her: all of this would be sad
Sad sad then. He will let them

Pick his place again and he is supreme
In drinks and tunes and beatings and he wishes he was her: all of this seems bad bad bad then. He does not feel

Any of it. He wipes himself afterward.
She rings for a week. He is suffering and awake.