Len Gurts Feels Like Pablo

I’m practicin my- I am practising my wor-
You know how some musicians
are good enough to play their instruments
poorly, yet they still sound really great? I want
to do that with a poem, so it’s good and bad
at the same time but that’s apparent. It’d perhaps
be arrogant, too? (That’s always my fear—lamps
under bushels again: Jesus Christ!) So how wud 1
make it apparent and still good
and coherent overall? You know, so it looks casual
and thrown together, but a little bit good? (I wish I could use “caj”
in a poem. Is that spelt right?) And what is to be made
of such an attempt? Why would one bother? And what would it say
about me? Put something psychoanalytic here, perhaps, or
some philosophy without directly using the jargon. Metaphysics? Or your independently writing
pen? I’m not sure how to even spell
that first “practising.” Why?
Really—why this? What does it say about you?
Unpicking that would be a good start.