When I leave the bar and the books I lie about
I see I am not here to be liked—to have friends.
I don’t want friends. Who has friends? Who wants to be liked?
I am only liked when I am nothing like I am, gifting them
what they want, not being the all that is rotten of me.
It isn’t human. It isn’t human to be simply rotten, or
disliked—or yourself: the pit of your bag of bones. We lie
about this—all our flaws; not authentically us. Being liked,
being nothing of yourself, having friends: that is
being human, and so false, and so flawed. But I am rotten and real and alone.
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